If I look difference, will I still be who I am?

People have their reason to do or decide to do something but whatever that reason is, only you, youself find that it is reasonable. For the other, they will just put a blame on you or reject that reason. However, who cares? My reason and my decision won't change because I have think more than twice before I reach this decision. I balance the advantage and disadvange. I ask so many people that i trust. I ask advice from almost everyone I know. I consider about it again an again.

I even ask myself,

-If i look different will I be the same ME?
-will I still be someone I used to be?
-will you still accept me as your friend,

your daughter,

your sister,

your cousin,

your granddaughter,

your niece or your student?
-will people look at me the same way as they used to do?
-will they feel disguisting toward me?
-will they chase me away deny that they never knew me?

I can't imagine if the answer is "No".
-That I will not be the same.
-No one will accept the fact that I am Svieta
-No one will accept the fact that they used to know me before
-Everyone feel disguisting
-Everyone chase me away like someone they never know.

And no matter how hard m trying to tell them
-To explain them hoping that they will accept the new me
-To talk to them
-To be friendly
-To remind the past hoping that they will remember me
They just stand up and walk away then what will my life be?
and I'll ask myself did I make the wrong decision?

However, I promise that:
-I will always be the same
-I will always be your daughter,
-Your sister
-Your granddaughter
-Your cousin
-Your niece
-Your student
-Your friend....if You don't mind this newly look ME...