I am in my changing process...

Well...I feel the change in my behavior, my attitute, my habit, I feel the change in my life. Though, people couldn't see it yet but you, yourself is the one who know it better than anyone else, isn't it?

I don't like to play around, kidding or talk nonsense thing anymore. I feel tired of being crazy and careless. I am tired of everything I used to do. I am tried of such a kiddo idea. I think I am getting mature, but sometimes I am still who I used to be simply because I am not completely change. I didn't want to change myself but I don't know why I suddenly change. I suddenly don't trust anyone surround me any more even they are whom I used to trust and need supported from. It's hard to describe what I feel right now. It's also impossible to share what I feel here. As I mention earlier, I don't trust anyone , so I am kind of selfish to share my story with the other people. The new me is the selfish one but the old me is telling me that I can't leave this blog and I can't even leave you all alone wondering where I am...