A walk to remember...

"A walk to remember" is a novel and movie title. I just LOVE that movie soooo much. It was so touch and so sad, but I didn't cry because if I cry for that movie, it's gonna be hard to stop.
ok, let me give you a brief summery of the whole story:

this is the summery from the internet:

In Beaufort, North Carolina, a prank on a student goes terribly wrong and puts the student in the hospital. Landon Carter, a popular student with no defined plans for the future, is held responsible and forced to participate in after-school community service activities as punishment, which include starring as the lead in the school play. Also participating in these activities is Jamie Sullivan, the reverend's daughter who has great ambitions and nothing in common with Landon. When Landon decides he wants to take his activities seriously, he asks Jamie for help and begins to spend most of his time with her. But he starts to develop strong feelings for her, something he did not expect to do. The two start a relationship, much to the chagrin of Landon's old popular friends and Jamie's strict reverend father. But when a heart-breaking secret becomes known that puts their relationship to the test, it is then that Landon and Jamie realize the true meaning of love and fate.

More about the story by Me^^ :
Landon ask Jamie to help him to rehearse. Jamie said: I'll help u but u have to promise me that u won't fall in love with me and when he told her that he love her, she said: I told you not to fall in love with me. After they were in a relationship, the girl reveal her secret that she got cancer, but that guy didnt stop loving her. he work very hard to prove her that he did change for her, and he even ask her to married him. After they got married, one or 2 months later she went away. she's dead. The girl change the guy, she gave him hope and faith. she's always believe in him and said that she saw sth in him even before they get together. He is totally a different person after he know her. He change from a boy who had no plan for life after highschool to become a better person. For example, he has finished college and has been accepted into medical school. He tells Jamie's father that he is sorry he could not grant Jamie's wish to witness "a miracle" before she died. Her father replies by saying, "She did. It was you."

He still remember her all his life. He said: Jamie's love is like the wind, you cant see it but you feel it.


here are some of the conversation I like from the movie:

Landon: Jamie, I'm trying here, OK? Maybe... maybe I miss spending time with you. Maybe you inspire me.
Jamie: Sounds like bull.
Landon: Which part?
Jamie: All of it.
Landon: Well it's not!
Jamie: Prove it.
Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.

Landon's friend said: this girl change you and you don't even know it man...

Jamie: Please don't pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We've had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you're Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn't exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from "Stars and Planets." Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven't heard before.
Landon: You don't care what people think about you?
Jamie: No

after he know that Jamie got cancer, he went to her house the next morning and told to her dad to tell her that: "I am not going anywhere, please told Jamie that she make me want to be different."

Landon: Do you love me?
Jamie: smile and look that him in to the eyes. She answer him by letting him read her mind
Landon: Will you do something for me then?
Jamie: Anything
Landon: Will you married me?
Jamie: smile and.....

Jamie said when she was in the hospital:
Jamie: You know what I figured out today?
Landon: What?
Jamie: Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I'm sick. To help me through all this. You're my angel.

Landon: Hey. How are you feeling?
Jamie: I'm ok, how are you?
Landon: Pretty good.
Jamie: I have something for you.
Landon: You do?
Jamie: Uh hmm... Don't worry it's not a bible. It was my mother's. It's got quotes from all her favorite books, and quotes by famous people. Her thoughts. Come on.
Landon: Okay, let's check it out. Okay...”What is a friend? It's a single soul dwelling in two bodies." -Aristotle.
Jamie: Uh uh, right here.
Landon: Okay. "Find out who you are, and do it on purpose." That's Dolly Parton.
Jamie: I always thought she was smart.
Landon: "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."


Landon: Listen, Jamie, I was hoping we could run lines together?
Jamie: Okay, but just not so anybody knows, right?
Landon: Well I just figured we could surprise everyone with how good I get.
Jamie: Like we could be secret friends.
Landon: Exactly, exactly it's like you're reading my mind.
Jamie: Great umm... maybe you could read mine. [she gives him a cold glare and turns away] Landon: Jamie, Jamie I can't just be your friend.
Jamie: Landon, look, I thought I saw something in you, something good, but I was very wrong.


Jamie: I'm sick.
Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be be...
Jamie: No. Landon! I'm sick. I have Leukemia.
Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.
Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.
Landon: So why didn't you tell me?
Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.
Landon: Including me?
Jamie: Especially you! [Jamie looks down]
Jamie: [Landon gets upset]
Jamie: Ya know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I do not need a reason to be angry with God. [Jamie runs away]

Jamie: [after she and Landon keep switching the radio station] Forty-two.
Landon: "Forty-two", what do you-what do you mean "forty-two"?
Jamie: Forty-two is "Befriend somebody I don't like". It's a to-do list I have.
Landon: What, like getting a new personality?
Jamie: Spend a year in the Peace Corps, make a medical discovery...
Landon: That's ambitious.
Jamie: ...Be in two places at once, get a tattoo.
Landon: What's number one?
Jamie: I'd tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.
Landon: So, what's your number one?
Jamie: To marry in the church my mother grew up. It's where my parents were married.


check it if you are interested in it. We can just watch it on youtube. It takes you only around an hour and a half to finish the whole movie.

5 days left.....

It was just like yesterday when I had my year 2 final exam. I remember the time when I felt so happy and ready to enjoy the vacation. I even write down a list of things I plan to do, but right now it's almost over. I have only 5 more days to rest in peace. I would say that my vacation this year is a breathtaking time of the year. I'd never before sleep any time and as long as I want to. I'd never before watching TV without any pressure from school work, but, it seems like the incredible relaxing time is almost finish.

I have to rush from IFL at 5:00pm to my house and then go to my law school where the class started at 5:30pm.

I was always arrive home at aound 8:30pm, and I am actually flaked out.
I haven't count the amount of work that given by IFL lecturer. Oh my god...how busy and tiring could that be. (reading assignment, writen assignment, homework, presentation, review for unexpected quiz, writing journal....) plus, the other works from my law school. It's scare me just to think about that.

So, these are my plan from the previous post and how much I could achieve it.

Education purpose:
1- pay more attention on my chinese class. = yes, I did
2- pay more attention and spend more time to read some law books. = yes, I have read around 7 different books of law.
3- continues study Thai language (I used to study it last vacation so i'll just do the same this year.) No, I didn't
4- spend more time read the newspaper(Cambodia Daily), watch more useful TV program (National Geography, Discovery channel...), listen to the radio (Chinese Radio, VOA, BBC...) = yeah...but not as much as I plan to.
5- arrange the old book and keep some place for year 3 books. = not yet :(

Health purpose:
- gain 6kg or more in this 3 months (because I am too thin) = I gain only 1kg :(
-sleep 10 hours per day. = yes, more than 10 I guess :))
- drink more than 2 litres of water per day = umm, I drink less water when I have nothing to do like that.
- exercise every morning.... = couldn't get up early = this plan fail successfully :P

Entertaining purpose:
- finish some dramas (at least one for this vacation) = 4 dramas not including the novel books :))
- chatting- listen to the music- and so on.... = that's an easy plan to achieve.

Is it a good thing to do?

I sometimes regret for what I have told the people.
They might thought that I am jealous with other or I am a bad friend to suspect such a thing, but it's my personality. I cannot hide the truth. When I saw something is going wrong, I cannot lie that It work well. I just......

well......I don't care. I didn't jealous with other. All I know is the truth will be reveal no matter how. So, You can think that I am bad, I am evil but I just try to show people the truth that they can't really see.

Land law assignment result^^

When lecturer call out the name to give the assignment result back, I felt so curious. I am keen to know how much I get.

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Finally, he call my name and I got....I got 18/20...and it's seems to be the highest score cus no one could get more than that, but many people could get 18 and I am one of them^^. I am satisfy....so I am gonna go to bed now.

Be who you are....

I don't really know where to start, or how to say first. I just know that I don't like people, who act as if they are good or better than the other while they are not. They sometimes act as a genious and confront with the other to detest that their idea or their answer is the right one when it actually sound so stupid. well, by saying this, it doesn't mean that I am always right, but if I am not sure about something, I won't argue for what I am not sure. I may only be definite with something when I know that, It is the right things to say or to do. So, whenever I met, saw or known anyone who keep argue for their ridiculous mistake and ignore their mistake, I just HATE it.

I got a classmate who always got her boy-friend to write journal, or assignment for her (He is smart). And that girl come to class with pride. She act as she's a really smart student and keep disagree with the other answer or idea. Guess what?? In class, she is suck. She try to act cool but everytime she disagree with my answer, my answer is always the right one.

There's a time we got an exam in class, and she couldn't even finish a paragraph. She said that she can't think of any idea to write. Can you believe that??? A person who always submit a very nice journal or essay to the lecturer could not finish a paragraph??

And there's also a time she work in the same group assignment with me, and she provoke us to accept her bf's essay and give it to the lecturer. We all disagree and I manage to write one for the group then I gave it to the other 3 members including her to edit it. U know wat? she complain this and that. She criticize the whole 1000 words essay. Of course, I didnt say that my work is great or perfect and that's why I gave it to them to edit. To help it look better. I just try to finish it first so that we can change everything later on and If anyone could come up with a better idea, that was great for the whole group. So, If you saw my mistake feel free to change it. I am happy to change and accept my mistake but don't just criticize or complain but couldn't find anything better to replace my mistake. So, 3 of them share the part to edit it, but again, that girl couldnt edit even one paragraph. Everyone finish their editing and hand it back to me to put them all together. At that night I stay up until 2am to edit her part and finish everything. well, it's really hard to edit ur own work so I got the other members to help. We help edit that part online. Thanks god, we got internet at home. I hate that type of person. The type of person who take the other work or ask someone else to do their work for them and say that they do it themselve. For me, low score or high score doesnt matter as long as it is from my own work. I am happy to see it. It's my ability. I am confident enough to show my lecturer how well or how much I understand from his/her class. I am sad to find out that the friend that I like, the friend that I adore is that type of person in deed...

shopping!!

2 days shopping with mum and sis
other day shopping with friends^^

(picture will be shown later)

I am always like that....stupid ME:(

Well, it's a shame to confess that I keep repeat what I hate about myself.

I got my "Take-Home exam" on Friday last week and the deadline is Friday this week (Midnight).
I have one week to do it, to write it as beautiful as I can but...

I started to do it on Thurday (just one day before the deadline) .
I never have a clear view on how to write such a legal analysis, but then my lecturer sent us a sample with a clue about the important issue that are present in the case.

How stupid I was...I didnt search for more sample of memorandum. Memorandum??? what is that? how to write it?? I have no idea. My friend did search for different style of memorandum. They could write a very nice one while mine is a mess.

I spent some time on Thurday morning to do it and sleep for the whole afternoon, then off to land law class in the evening. I got back home continue alittle bit and then go to bed.

Friday has come, I woke up at 9am and start doing the exam again at 9:30am.
I had lunch at 11:30 and then took a nap until 4:00pm. while I am taking nap 3 of my friends were having a meet up at school to work on the exam together. They work really hard while I enjoy sleeping at home. After I woke up, I have some snack and then go shopping with my parents at the New mall that just open 3 days ago (City Mall)
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I got back home at 9:00pm and finished my dinner at 9:30pm. I try to finish my work no matter how, because it's almost 12:00am. While I am doing it, I also chat with 2 friends of mine. One is just went to US last week the, other one is having a birthday party today so I just drop by to say happy birthday. I also reply some comment on facebook.

Can you believe that?? I spent more time having fun than spending on my exam, so finally I did it....yeah!!! done. After I have sent it to the lecturer, Me and my friend exchange one another work.

I opened my friend's work and read it.....
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It was so nice. Everything is clear and going step by step with proper result while mine is chopping in piece and leave it out without a solution.

And everytime I did it, I always feel regret and keep saying the same nonsense word like:
- If only I pay more attention to it
- If only I do more research
- If only I read more books
- If only I take it alittle bit more serious
- If only I share my idea with my friend just like they did
- If only I am not this stupid
- If only I am not careless
- If only I spend more time on it
- If only I started to do it earlier
- If only...........................................

It's still (IF) but it is not. It's too late
I hate myself for didn't do or try my best
I hate myself for always regret at the end of the day
I hate myself for not realized it on time
I hate myself for my stupidity.......... and that's what I want to say.

Am I???

Sometimes people said I am sweet...Am I??
They said I am smart...Am I?
I am kind...Am I?
I am friendly...Am I?
I am playful...Am I?
I got a sense of humor...Am I?
I didnt look bad, sometimes they said I look cute...Am I?
I am selfish...Am I?
I am mean...Am I?
I am impatient...Am I?
I am boring...Am I?
I am weak...Am I?
I am Laziiii...That's me^^

09.september.2009, 09:09am and 09:09pm!! the lucky moment

There are many people today who are celebrating and partying. There's also alot of messages forward from one person to another to share their wishes. I got 5 or 6 of them as well. However, I stay at home all day long and enjoy the foods and sleep peacefully, hahaha....
I also wanted to do something for myself today so I got myself 9 wishes and hope it will come true by sharing these wishes to the whole world. (the below picture is ME^^ on my 10th birthday, make a wish^^)

1- I wish to be fatter than now, I want to gain 10kg more :D
2- I wish to get a full scholarship for Master degree even my dad can afford to pay for me but I don't want to wash their money.
3- I wish to have a really good job which provide me money and power
4- I wish me and my family to be healthy
5- to be wealthy
6- I wish to found Mr.Right and be together with him
7- I wish to be with all the people I love forever and ever such as my parents, my little sister, grandparents, uncle and other relative and friends
8- I wish all the people I adore feel the same way to me
9 - and finally I wish to have all the 8 wish above come true.

This is the picture of my lil sis on her birthday when she was 3 year old, now she is 9 year old already.

Today's picture with Friend^^

Both car are friend, they both usually park near each other just like it's owner jeng ^^

Svieta Vs. Svetlena :D....there will be more picture after I edit some pic and after we took new pic next week.... (Coming up next on http://www.oumchansvieta.blogspot.com)