Finally, it is the end of 2009. Today people are traveling to different place to celebrate and have fun especially to count down while my day is just the same as everyday. I go to school normally and come back home and that's it. I am all alone. :(
I wish tomorrow everything will be totally different as tomorrow is new year 2010 I wish:
I am not alone again and I wish I am not invisible like this year. Hope there's a miracle and change everything to be better for me.
My new year resolution is too much to write it down...let's see if I can actually do it.
Good bye 2009....muahhh
welcome 2010...yeahhhhh!!!!!!
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
so confusing...
it's been such a long long time that I havent come to my blog. well...I am busy since the school start again this year. and even now, when I am typing this post. I was just keep typing without caring about any mistake, organise it or have any proper plan. It just a free writing to make me feel better. I write whatever pop up in my mind and those thing keep changing all the time. I am sorry if it make u as a reader feel confuse while reading this post. Like u have no idea what is going on. I might talking alittle bit about this and than go alittle bit about the other thing. Simply because I don't understand myself too. I kinda feel upset and disappointed.
I don't really want to use my blog to complain thing about life. I used to try to be professional and post sth that might be useful. Yet, I can't avoid it. I have no one to tell. Actually, I do have many people to tell but sometime I feel that they are get bored of listen to my complain and I dont really want to disturb them any more. It's strage right? that I said I didnt want to tell anyone but come right away to this blog n post everything here. well...blog is alittle bit different. 'My story will be post here and will be read by many ppl even s1 I dunno. So, those ppl will know my story but they might be interesting to read cus if not just get out of here. I am not telling you. I just wrote it out to release my...my stress, my sad feeling. So, it's already there for ppl to read if they want to and leave it if they don't.
All right, I might going to far. You might wonder what is really going on? what is the problem? Am I upset? Angry? and what was the reason? why?
Again, it's nth much beside life. The word life is short but it's a huge words. It's sometime make ppl feel tired of it. It's not what always going well and perfectly alright like what u expect it to be. It often so complicated and so complex with many difficulty and problems. It's make ppl feel really tired at the end of the day and hoping that tmr, the new day, might be better. The new day won't be the same and that everything in the next day would be the happy ending. But, is that really happen when tmr come? does everything seems to change completely? I meant, u still the same ppl doing the same thing.
Also, the world is not big butnot small neither. ppl actually live on the same planet but different world. they experience different thing and meet different ppl. Sometimes, you body, ur behavior do sth different from what u want urself to behave. You actually know what is right and what is wrong to do, but, still, you make a mistake. You make everybody judge u wrong. You make the bad first impression and no one seems to care abt u. in contrast, you are not like that but it just hard to be real. It's hard to be u with many ppl around. I meant, what they see is not you at all.
who's care? I dun care and no one will care. just ignore it? be rude? be mean? no that's not what u want ppl to think abt u that way. but ppl are bad u know. they are just unbelievable. scary and cunning, tricky, cheated....so should u adapt in that environment by being mean, tricky too? should u? should I? should we?
One more thing, why do ppl have to feel jealous of the other? why don't just do u best with what u have? why have to be envious with the other? I know that no one gonna come n answer such a question I asked and in fact I am not asking anyone to answer this. I just want to complain. Have my voice heard. Make me feel better and that's it.
I know I sound so mean and rude in this post. It's like I didnt care abt other ppl at all. Even the way I type today. No capital letter when I start the sentence and I used lots of informal words showing that I dun really care abt the reader. whether ot not they understand what I am writing abt. Okay...I think this's enough. I feel alot better now and I might go to bed too :) thanks for reading my random confusing silly post. Night night..zZzZzZzzz....
I don't really want to use my blog to complain thing about life. I used to try to be professional and post sth that might be useful. Yet, I can't avoid it. I have no one to tell. Actually, I do have many people to tell but sometime I feel that they are get bored of listen to my complain and I dont really want to disturb them any more. It's strage right? that I said I didnt want to tell anyone but come right away to this blog n post everything here. well...blog is alittle bit different. 'My story will be post here and will be read by many ppl even s1 I dunno. So, those ppl will know my story but they might be interesting to read cus if not just get out of here. I am not telling you. I just wrote it out to release my...my stress, my sad feeling. So, it's already there for ppl to read if they want to and leave it if they don't.
All right, I might going to far. You might wonder what is really going on? what is the problem? Am I upset? Angry? and what was the reason? why?
Again, it's nth much beside life. The word life is short but it's a huge words. It's sometime make ppl feel tired of it. It's not what always going well and perfectly alright like what u expect it to be. It often so complicated and so complex with many difficulty and problems. It's make ppl feel really tired at the end of the day and hoping that tmr, the new day, might be better. The new day won't be the same and that everything in the next day would be the happy ending. But, is that really happen when tmr come? does everything seems to change completely? I meant, u still the same ppl doing the same thing.
Also, the world is not big butnot small neither. ppl actually live on the same planet but different world. they experience different thing and meet different ppl. Sometimes, you body, ur behavior do sth different from what u want urself to behave. You actually know what is right and what is wrong to do, but, still, you make a mistake. You make everybody judge u wrong. You make the bad first impression and no one seems to care abt u. in contrast, you are not like that but it just hard to be real. It's hard to be u with many ppl around. I meant, what they see is not you at all.
who's care? I dun care and no one will care. just ignore it? be rude? be mean? no that's not what u want ppl to think abt u that way. but ppl are bad u know. they are just unbelievable. scary and cunning, tricky, cheated....so should u adapt in that environment by being mean, tricky too? should u? should I? should we?
One more thing, why do ppl have to feel jealous of the other? why don't just do u best with what u have? why have to be envious with the other? I know that no one gonna come n answer such a question I asked and in fact I am not asking anyone to answer this. I just want to complain. Have my voice heard. Make me feel better and that's it.
I know I sound so mean and rude in this post. It's like I didnt care abt other ppl at all. Even the way I type today. No capital letter when I start the sentence and I used lots of informal words showing that I dun really care abt the reader. whether ot not they understand what I am writing abt. Okay...I think this's enough. I feel alot better now and I might go to bed too :) thanks for reading my random confusing silly post. Night night..zZzZzZzzz....
Friday, September 18, 2009
A walk to remember...
"A walk to remember" is a novel and movie title. I just LOVE that movie soooo much. It was so touch and so sad, but I didn't cry because if I cry for that movie, it's gonna be hard to stop.
ok, let me give you a brief summery of the whole story:
this is the summery from the internet:
In Beaufort, North Carolina, a prank on a student goes terribly wrong and puts the student in the hospital. Landon Carter, a popular student with no defined plans for the future, is held responsible and forced to participate in after-school community service activities as punishment, which include starring as the lead in the school play. Also participating in these activities is Jamie Sullivan, the reverend's daughter who has great ambitions and nothing in common with Landon. When Landon decides he wants to take his activities seriously, he asks Jamie for help and begins to spend most of his time with her. But he starts to develop strong feelings for her, something he did not expect to do. The two start a relationship, much to the chagrin of Landon's old popular friends and Jamie's strict reverend father. But when a heart-breaking secret becomes known that puts their relationship to the test, it is then that Landon and Jamie realize the true meaning of love and fate.
More about the story by Me^^ :
Landon ask Jamie to help him to rehearse. Jamie said: I'll help u but u have to promise me that u won't fall in love with me and when he told her that he love her, she said: I told you not to fall in love with me. After they were in a relationship, the girl reveal her secret that she got cancer, but that guy didnt stop loving her. he work very hard to prove her that he did change for her, and he even ask her to married him. After they got married, one or 2 months later she went away. she's dead. The girl change the guy, she gave him hope and faith. she's always believe in him and said that she saw sth in him even before they get together. He is totally a different person after he know her. He change from a boy who had no plan for life after highschool to become a better person. For example, he has finished college and has been accepted into medical school. He tells Jamie's father that he is sorry he could not grant Jamie's wish to witness "a miracle" before she died. Her father replies by saying, "She did. It was you."
He still remember her all his life. He said: Jamie's love is like the wind, you cant see it but you feel it.
here are some of the conversation I like from the movie:
Landon: Jamie, I'm trying here, OK? Maybe... maybe I miss spending time with you. Maybe you inspire me.
Jamie: Sounds like bull.
Landon: Which part?
Jamie: All of it.
Landon: Well it's not!
Jamie: Prove it.
Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.
Landon's friend said: this girl change you and you don't even know it man...
Jamie: Please don't pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We've had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you're Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn't exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from "Stars and Planets." Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven't heard before.
Landon: You don't care what people think about you?
Jamie: No
after he know that Jamie got cancer, he went to her house the next morning and told to her dad to tell her that: "I am not going anywhere, please told Jamie that she make me want to be different."
Landon: Do you love me?
Jamie: smile and look that him in to the eyes. She answer him by letting him read her mind
Landon: Will you do something for me then?
Jamie: Anything
Landon: Will you married me?
Jamie: smile and.....
Jamie said when she was in the hospital:
Jamie: You know what I figured out today?
Landon: What?
Jamie: Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I'm sick. To help me through all this. You're my angel.
Landon: Hey. How are you feeling?
Jamie: I'm ok, how are you?
Landon: Pretty good.
Jamie: I have something for you.
Landon: You do?
Jamie: Uh hmm... Don't worry it's not a bible. It was my mother's. It's got quotes from all her favorite books, and quotes by famous people. Her thoughts. Come on.
Landon: Okay, let's check it out. Okay...”What is a friend? It's a single soul dwelling in two bodies." -Aristotle.
Jamie: Uh uh, right here.
Landon: Okay. "Find out who you are, and do it on purpose." That's Dolly Parton.
Jamie: I always thought she was smart.
Landon: "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."
Landon: Listen, Jamie, I was hoping we could run lines together?
Jamie: Okay, but just not so anybody knows, right?
Landon: Well I just figured we could surprise everyone with how good I get.
Jamie: Like we could be secret friends.
Landon: Exactly, exactly it's like you're reading my mind.
Jamie: Great umm... maybe you could read mine. [she gives him a cold glare and turns away] Landon: Jamie, Jamie I can't just be your friend.
Jamie: Landon, look, I thought I saw something in you, something good, but I was very wrong.
Jamie: I'm sick.
Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be be...
Jamie: No. Landon! I'm sick. I have Leukemia.
Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.
Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.
Landon: So why didn't you tell me?
Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.
Landon: Including me?
Jamie: Especially you! [Jamie looks down]
Jamie: [Landon gets upset]
Jamie: Ya know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I do not need a reason to be angry with God. [Jamie runs away]
Jamie: [after she and Landon keep switching the radio station] Forty-two.
Landon: "Forty-two", what do you-what do you mean "forty-two"?
Jamie: Forty-two is "Befriend somebody I don't like". It's a to-do list I have.
Landon: What, like getting a new personality?
Jamie: Spend a year in the Peace Corps, make a medical discovery...
Landon: That's ambitious.
Jamie: ...Be in two places at once, get a tattoo.
Landon: What's number one?
Jamie: I'd tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.
Landon: So, what's your number one?
Jamie: To marry in the church my mother grew up. It's where my parents were married.
check it if you are interested in it. We can just watch it on youtube. It takes you only around an hour and a half to finish the whole movie.
ok, let me give you a brief summery of the whole story:
this is the summery from the internet:
In Beaufort, North Carolina, a prank on a student goes terribly wrong and puts the student in the hospital. Landon Carter, a popular student with no defined plans for the future, is held responsible and forced to participate in after-school community service activities as punishment, which include starring as the lead in the school play. Also participating in these activities is Jamie Sullivan, the reverend's daughter who has great ambitions and nothing in common with Landon. When Landon decides he wants to take his activities seriously, he asks Jamie for help and begins to spend most of his time with her. But he starts to develop strong feelings for her, something he did not expect to do. The two start a relationship, much to the chagrin of Landon's old popular friends and Jamie's strict reverend father. But when a heart-breaking secret becomes known that puts their relationship to the test, it is then that Landon and Jamie realize the true meaning of love and fate.
More about the story by Me^^ :
Landon ask Jamie to help him to rehearse. Jamie said: I'll help u but u have to promise me that u won't fall in love with me and when he told her that he love her, she said: I told you not to fall in love with me. After they were in a relationship, the girl reveal her secret that she got cancer, but that guy didnt stop loving her. he work very hard to prove her that he did change for her, and he even ask her to married him. After they got married, one or 2 months later she went away. she's dead. The girl change the guy, she gave him hope and faith. she's always believe in him and said that she saw sth in him even before they get together. He is totally a different person after he know her. He change from a boy who had no plan for life after highschool to become a better person. For example, he has finished college and has been accepted into medical school. He tells Jamie's father that he is sorry he could not grant Jamie's wish to witness "a miracle" before she died. Her father replies by saying, "She did. It was you."
He still remember her all his life. He said: Jamie's love is like the wind, you cant see it but you feel it.
here are some of the conversation I like from the movie:
Landon: Jamie, I'm trying here, OK? Maybe... maybe I miss spending time with you. Maybe you inspire me.
Jamie: Sounds like bull.
Landon: Which part?
Jamie: All of it.
Landon: Well it's not!
Jamie: Prove it.
Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.
Landon's friend said: this girl change you and you don't even know it man...
Jamie: Please don't pretend like you know me, ok?
Landon: But I do, I do. We've had all the same classes in the same school since kindergarten. Why you're Jamie Sullivan. You sit at lunch table 7. Which isn't exactly the reject table, but is definitely in self exile territory. You have exactly one sweater. You like to look at your feet when you walk. Oh, oh, and yeah, for fun, you like to tutor on weekends and hang out with the cool kids from "Stars and Planets." Now how does that sound?
Jamie: Thoroughly predictable, nothing I haven't heard before.
Landon: You don't care what people think about you?
Jamie: No
after he know that Jamie got cancer, he went to her house the next morning and told to her dad to tell her that: "I am not going anywhere, please told Jamie that she make me want to be different."
Landon: Do you love me?
Jamie: smile and look that him in to the eyes. She answer him by letting him read her mind
Landon: Will you do something for me then?
Jamie: Anything
Landon: Will you married me?
Jamie: smile and.....
Jamie said when she was in the hospital:
Jamie: You know what I figured out today?
Landon: What?
Jamie: Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I'm sick. To help me through all this. You're my angel.
Landon: Hey. How are you feeling?
Jamie: I'm ok, how are you?
Landon: Pretty good.
Jamie: I have something for you.
Landon: You do?
Jamie: Uh hmm... Don't worry it's not a bible. It was my mother's. It's got quotes from all her favorite books, and quotes by famous people. Her thoughts. Come on.
Landon: Okay, let's check it out. Okay...”What is a friend? It's a single soul dwelling in two bodies." -Aristotle.
Jamie: Uh uh, right here.
Landon: Okay. "Find out who you are, and do it on purpose." That's Dolly Parton.
Jamie: I always thought she was smart.
Landon: "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."
Landon: Listen, Jamie, I was hoping we could run lines together?
Jamie: Okay, but just not so anybody knows, right?
Landon: Well I just figured we could surprise everyone with how good I get.
Jamie: Like we could be secret friends.
Landon: Exactly, exactly it's like you're reading my mind.
Jamie: Great umm... maybe you could read mine. [she gives him a cold glare and turns away] Landon: Jamie, Jamie I can't just be your friend.
Jamie: Landon, look, I thought I saw something in you, something good, but I was very wrong.
Jamie: I'm sick.
Landon: I'll take you home. You'll be be...
Jamie: No. Landon! I'm sick. I have Leukemia.
Landon: No. You're 18. You - you're perfect.
Jamie: No. I found out two years ago and I've stopped responding to treatments.
Landon: So why didn't you tell me?
Jamie: The doctor said I should go on and live life normally as best I could. I - I didn't want anybody to be weird around me.
Landon: Including me?
Jamie: Especially you! [Jamie looks down]
Jamie: [Landon gets upset]
Jamie: Ya know, I was getting along with everything fine. I accepted it, and then you happened! I do not need a reason to be angry with God. [Jamie runs away]
Jamie: [after she and Landon keep switching the radio station] Forty-two.
Landon: "Forty-two", what do you-what do you mean "forty-two"?
Jamie: Forty-two is "Befriend somebody I don't like". It's a to-do list I have.
Landon: What, like getting a new personality?
Jamie: Spend a year in the Peace Corps, make a medical discovery...
Landon: That's ambitious.
Jamie: ...Be in two places at once, get a tattoo.
Landon: What's number one?
Jamie: I'd tell you, but then I'd have to kill you.
Landon: So, what's your number one?
Jamie: To marry in the church my mother grew up. It's where my parents were married.
check it if you are interested in it. We can just watch it on youtube. It takes you only around an hour and a half to finish the whole movie.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
5 days left.....
It was just like yesterday when I had my year 2 final exam. I remember the time when I felt so happy and ready to enjoy the vacation. I even write down a list of things I plan to do, but right now it's almost over. I have only 5 more days to rest in peace. I would say that my vacation this year is a breathtaking time of the year. I'd never before sleep any time and as long as I want to. I'd never before watching TV without any pressure from school work, but, it seems like the incredible relaxing time is almost finish.
I have to rush from IFL at 5:00pm to my house and then go to my law school where the class started at 5:30pm.
I was always arrive home at aound 8:30pm, and I am actually flaked out.
I haven't count the amount of work that given by IFL lecturer. Oh my god...how busy and tiring could that be. (reading assignment, writen assignment, homework, presentation, review for unexpected quiz, writing journal....) plus, the other works from my law school. It's scare me just to think about that.
So, these are my plan from the previous post and how much I could achieve it.
Education purpose:
1- pay more attention on my chinese class. = yes, I did
2- pay more attention and spend more time to read some law books. = yes, I have read around 7 different books of law.
3- continues study Thai language (I used to study it last vacation so i'll just do the same this year.) No, I didn't
4- spend more time read the newspaper(Cambodia Daily), watch more useful TV program (National Geography, Discovery channel...), listen to the radio (Chinese Radio, VOA, BBC...) = yeah...but not as much as I plan to.
5- arrange the old book and keep some place for year 3 books. = not yet :(
Health purpose:
- gain 6kg or more in this 3 months (because I am too thin) = I gain only 1kg :(
-sleep 10 hours per day. = yes, more than 10 I guess :))
- drink more than 2 litres of water per day = umm, I drink less water when I have nothing to do like that.
- exercise every morning.... = couldn't get up early = this plan fail successfully :P
Entertaining purpose:
- finish some dramas (at least one for this vacation) = 4 dramas not including the novel books :))
- chatting- listen to the music- and so on.... = that's an easy plan to achieve.
I have to rush from IFL at 5:00pm to my house and then go to my law school where the class started at 5:30pm.
I was always arrive home at aound 8:30pm, and I am actually flaked out.
I haven't count the amount of work that given by IFL lecturer. Oh my god...how busy and tiring could that be. (reading assignment, writen assignment, homework, presentation, review for unexpected quiz, writing journal....) plus, the other works from my law school. It's scare me just to think about that.
So, these are my plan from the previous post and how much I could achieve it.
Education purpose:
1- pay more attention on my chinese class. = yes, I did
2- pay more attention and spend more time to read some law books. = yes, I have read around 7 different books of law.
3- continues study Thai language (I used to study it last vacation so i'll just do the same this year.) No, I didn't
4- spend more time read the newspaper(Cambodia Daily), watch more useful TV program (National Geography, Discovery channel...), listen to the radio (Chinese Radio, VOA, BBC...) = yeah...but not as much as I plan to.
5- arrange the old book and keep some place for year 3 books. = not yet :(
Health purpose:
- gain 6kg or more in this 3 months (because I am too thin) = I gain only 1kg :(
-sleep 10 hours per day. = yes, more than 10 I guess :))
- drink more than 2 litres of water per day = umm, I drink less water when I have nothing to do like that.
- exercise every morning.... = couldn't get up early = this plan fail successfully :P
Entertaining purpose:
- finish some dramas (at least one for this vacation) = 4 dramas not including the novel books :))
- chatting- listen to the music- and so on.... = that's an easy plan to achieve.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Is it a good thing to do?
I sometimes regret for what I have told the people.
They might thought that I am jealous with other or I am a bad friend to suspect such a thing, but it's my personality. I cannot hide the truth. When I saw something is going wrong, I cannot lie that It work well. I just......
well......I don't care. I didn't jealous with other. All I know is the truth will be reveal no matter how. So, You can think that I am bad, I am evil but I just try to show people the truth that they can't really see.
They might thought that I am jealous with other or I am a bad friend to suspect such a thing, but it's my personality. I cannot hide the truth. When I saw something is going wrong, I cannot lie that It work well. I just......
well......I don't care. I didn't jealous with other. All I know is the truth will be reveal no matter how. So, You can think that I am bad, I am evil but I just try to show people the truth that they can't really see.
Land law assignment result^^
When lecturer call out the name to give the assignment result back, I felt so curious. I am keen to know how much I get.
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Finally, he call my name and I got....I got 18/20...and it's seems to be the highest score cus no one could get more than that, but many people could get 18 and I am one of them^^. I am satisfy....so I am gonna go to bed now.
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Finally, he call my name and I got....I got 18/20...and it's seems to be the highest score cus no one could get more than that, but many people could get 18 and I am one of them^^. I am satisfy....so I am gonna go to bed now.
Be who you are....
I don't really know where to start, or how to say first. I just know that I don't like people, who act as if they are good or better than the other while they are not. They sometimes act as a genious and confront with the other to detest that their idea or their answer is the right one when it actually sound so stupid. well, by saying this, it doesn't mean that I am always right, but if I am not sure about something, I won't argue for what I am not sure. I may only be definite with something when I know that, It is the right things to say or to do. So, whenever I met, saw or known anyone who keep argue for their ridiculous mistake and ignore their mistake, I just HATE it.
I got a classmate who always got her boy-friend to write journal, or assignment for her (He is smart). And that girl come to class with pride. She act as she's a really smart student and keep disagree with the other answer or idea. Guess what?? In class, she is suck. She try to act cool but everytime she disagree with my answer, my answer is always the right one.
There's a time we got an exam in class, and she couldn't even finish a paragraph. She said that she can't think of any idea to write. Can you believe that??? A person who always submit a very nice journal or essay to the lecturer could not finish a paragraph??
And there's also a time she work in the same group assignment with me, and she provoke us to accept her bf's essay and give it to the lecturer. We all disagree and I manage to write one for the group then I gave it to the other 3 members including her to edit it. U know wat? she complain this and that. She criticize the whole 1000 words essay. Of course, I didnt say that my work is great or perfect and that's why I gave it to them to edit. To help it look better. I just try to finish it first so that we can change everything later on and If anyone could come up with a better idea, that was great for the whole group. So, If you saw my mistake feel free to change it. I am happy to change and accept my mistake but don't just criticize or complain but couldn't find anything better to replace my mistake. So, 3 of them share the part to edit it, but again, that girl couldnt edit even one paragraph. Everyone finish their editing and hand it back to me to put them all together. At that night I stay up until 2am to edit her part and finish everything. well, it's really hard to edit ur own work so I got the other members to help. We help edit that part online. Thanks god, we got internet at home. I hate that type of person. The type of person who take the other work or ask someone else to do their work for them and say that they do it themselve. For me, low score or high score doesnt matter as long as it is from my own work. I am happy to see it. It's my ability. I am confident enough to show my lecturer how well or how much I understand from his/her class. I am sad to find out that the friend that I like, the friend that I adore is that type of person in deed...
Monday, September 14, 2009
shopping!!
2 days shopping with mum and sis
other day shopping with friends^^
(picture will be shown later)
other day shopping with friends^^
(picture will be shown later)
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I am always like that....stupid ME:(
Well, it's a shame to confess that I keep repeat what I hate about myself.
I got my "Take-Home exam" on Friday last week and the deadline is Friday this week (Midnight).
I have one week to do it, to write it as beautiful as I can but...
I started to do it on Thurday (just one day before the deadline) .
I never have a clear view on how to write such a legal analysis, but then my lecturer sent us a sample with a clue about the important issue that are present in the case.
How stupid I was...I didnt search for more sample of memorandum. Memorandum??? what is that? how to write it?? I have no idea. My friend did search for different style of memorandum. They could write a very nice one while mine is a mess.
I spent some time on Thurday morning to do it and sleep for the whole afternoon, then off to land law class in the evening. I got back home continue alittle bit and then go to bed.
Friday has come, I woke up at 9am and start doing the exam again at 9:30am.
I had lunch at 11:30 and then took a nap until 4:00pm. while I am taking nap 3 of my friends were having a meet up at school to work on the exam together. They work really hard while I enjoy sleeping at home. After I woke up, I have some snack and then go shopping with my parents at the New mall that just open 3 days ago (City Mall)
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I got back home at 9:00pm and finished my dinner at 9:30pm. I try to finish my work no matter how, because it's almost 12:00am. While I am doing it, I also chat with 2 friends of mine. One is just went to US last week the, other one is having a birthday party today so I just drop by to say happy birthday. I also reply some comment on facebook.
Can you believe that?? I spent more time having fun than spending on my exam, so finally I did it....yeah!!! done. After I have sent it to the lecturer, Me and my friend exchange one another work.
I opened my friend's work and read it.....
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It was so nice. Everything is clear and going step by step with proper result while mine is chopping in piece and leave it out without a solution.
And everytime I did it, I always feel regret and keep saying the same nonsense word like:
- If only I pay more attention to it
- If only I do more research
- If only I read more books
- If only I take it alittle bit more serious
- If only I share my idea with my friend just like they did
- If only I am not this stupid
- If only I am not careless
- If only I spend more time on it
- If only I started to do it earlier
- If only...........................................
It's still (IF) but it is not. It's too late
I hate myself for didn't do or try my best
I hate myself for always regret at the end of the day
I hate myself for not realized it on time
I hate myself for my stupidity.......... and that's what I want to say.
I got my "Take-Home exam" on Friday last week and the deadline is Friday this week (Midnight).
I have one week to do it, to write it as beautiful as I can but...
I started to do it on Thurday (just one day before the deadline) .
I never have a clear view on how to write such a legal analysis, but then my lecturer sent us a sample with a clue about the important issue that are present in the case.
How stupid I was...I didnt search for more sample of memorandum. Memorandum??? what is that? how to write it?? I have no idea. My friend did search for different style of memorandum. They could write a very nice one while mine is a mess.
I spent some time on Thurday morning to do it and sleep for the whole afternoon, then off to land law class in the evening. I got back home continue alittle bit and then go to bed.
Friday has come, I woke up at 9am and start doing the exam again at 9:30am.
I had lunch at 11:30 and then took a nap until 4:00pm. while I am taking nap 3 of my friends were having a meet up at school to work on the exam together. They work really hard while I enjoy sleeping at home. After I woke up, I have some snack and then go shopping with my parents at the New mall that just open 3 days ago (City Mall)
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I got back home at 9:00pm and finished my dinner at 9:30pm. I try to finish my work no matter how, because it's almost 12:00am. While I am doing it, I also chat with 2 friends of mine. One is just went to US last week the, other one is having a birthday party today so I just drop by to say happy birthday. I also reply some comment on facebook.
Can you believe that?? I spent more time having fun than spending on my exam, so finally I did it....yeah!!! done. After I have sent it to the lecturer, Me and my friend exchange one another work.
I opened my friend's work and read it.....
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It was so nice. Everything is clear and going step by step with proper result while mine is chopping in piece and leave it out without a solution.
And everytime I did it, I always feel regret and keep saying the same nonsense word like:
- If only I pay more attention to it
- If only I do more research
- If only I read more books
- If only I take it alittle bit more serious
- If only I share my idea with my friend just like they did
- If only I am not this stupid
- If only I am not careless
- If only I spend more time on it
- If only I started to do it earlier
- If only...........................................
It's still (IF) but it is not. It's too late
I hate myself for didn't do or try my best
I hate myself for always regret at the end of the day
I hate myself for not realized it on time
I hate myself for my stupidity.......... and that's what I want to say.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Am I???
Sometimes people said I am sweet...Am I??
They said I am smart...Am I?
I am kind...Am I?
I am friendly...Am I?
I am playful...Am I?
I got a sense of humor...Am I?
I didnt look bad, sometimes they said I look cute...Am I?
I am selfish...Am I?
I am mean...Am I?
I am impatient...Am I?
I am boring...Am I?
I am weak...Am I?
I am Laziiii...That's me^^
They said I am smart...Am I?
I am kind...Am I?
I am friendly...Am I?
I am playful...Am I?
I got a sense of humor...Am I?
I didnt look bad, sometimes they said I look cute...Am I?
I am selfish...Am I?
I am mean...Am I?
I am impatient...Am I?
I am boring...Am I?
I am weak...Am I?
I am Laziiii...That's me^^
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
09.september.2009, 09:09am and 09:09pm!! the lucky moment
There are many people today who are celebrating and partying. There's also alot of messages forward from one person to another to share their wishes. I got 5 or 6 of them as well. However, I stay at home all day long and enjoy the foods and sleep peacefully, hahaha....I also wanted to do something for myself today so I got myself 9 wishes and hope it will come true by sharing these wishes to the whole world. (the below picture is ME^^ on my 10th birthday, make a wish^^)
1- I wish to be fatter than now, I want to gain 10kg more :D
2- I wish to get a full scholarship for Master degree even my dad can afford to pay for me but I don't want to wash their money.
3- I wish to have a really good job which provide me money and power
4- I wish me and my family to be healthy
5- to be wealthy
6- I wish to found Mr.Right and be together with him
7- I wish to be with all the people I love forever and ever such as my parents, my little sister, grandparents, uncle and other relative and friends
8- I wish all the people I adore feel the same way to me
9 - and finally I wish to have all the 8 wish above come true.
This is the picture of my lil sis on her birthday when she was 3 year old, now she is 9 year old already.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Today's picture with Friend^^
Both car are friend, they both usually park near each other just like it's owner jeng ^^
Svieta Vs. Svetlena :D....there will be more picture after I edit some pic and after we took new pic next week.... (Coming up next on http://www.oumchansvieta.blogspot.com)
Svieta Vs. Svetlena :D....there will be more picture after I edit some pic and after we took new pic next week.... (Coming up next on http://www.oumchansvieta.blogspot.com)Saturday, August 29, 2009
A random post!!
There's a time when we jumped into one another and found out how well we can get along.
There's a time when I am sad, angry, regret...and you are always be my lisener.
There's a time when I am sad, angry, regret...and you are always be my lisener.
There's a time when we have alot of fun together and there's a time when you titled me as "Your friend".
But there's also a time when I am not sure to call you '''My friend' or else. I know I am not perfect and no one is perfect, but each of us is special. I am just the simple one among all of you but what is weird is, I like to judge people. I might like you at the first time, but after I know you quite well, I can judge what type of person you are, and that's the time I started to accepted you as a good friend or wanted to get away from you. I used to take a quiz to find out what is my secret talent and the result is "A Mind reader". It's partly correct. As I like to observe people's word, facial expression, eye contact or action, I can make a judgement and tell that they are fake or real. I know what they are thinking or what make them do such a thing. I can tell the reason why they said such a word or do such a generous thing. I sometimes like you alot, but some other time, I feel like you are evil and take me for granted. I feel like, you are a type of people who like to take advantage from a friend like me.
I feel like you are fake and pretending when you are with me, and it's not only about what I feel, but from my long term accurate judgement...I am sorry to say that you have woke me up from an unconscious nightmare...Now I can see who you really is and that's enough.
I have many friends but among those friend, 3 or 4 is my best friend that I can rely on. I guarantee that the people I called "My best friend" are deserve to be called.
They are:
- whom I know at least 3 years
- whom I am brave to show them the real me
- whom I am brave to show them the real me
- whom I feel free and happy to see them
- whom I feel safe to be with
- who understand me and know what I want to say in that kind of situation.
- who can finish my sentence correctly
- who never hide any useful information from me
- who always want me to have my dream come true
- who take me as a friend without seeing anything from me
- who is helpful in case I am in danger
- who is truely care about me, love me, support me, encourage me
- who has no trick at all
- whom I feel lucky to have found them
-who feel lucky to have found me.
- I am so scare to lose them. I would say "A best friend must be REAL and RARE" that's why we call it the BEST.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I am in my changing process...
Well...I feel the change in my behavior, my attitute, my habit, I feel the change in my life. Though, people couldn't see it yet but you, yourself is the one who know it better than anyone else, isn't it?
I don't like to play around, kidding or talk nonsense thing anymore. I feel tired of being crazy and careless. I am tired of everything I used to do. I am tried of such a kiddo idea. I think I am getting mature, but sometimes I am still who I used to be simply because I am not completely change. I didn't want to change myself but I don't know why I suddenly change. I suddenly don't trust anyone surround me any more even they are whom I used to trust and need supported from. It's hard to describe what I feel right now. It's also impossible to share what I feel here. As I mention earlier, I don't trust anyone , so I am kind of selfish to share my story with the other people. The new me is the selfish one but the old me is telling me that I can't leave this blog and I can't even leave you all alone wondering where I am...
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Happy Birthday to my twin name friend...
Today is your birthday...I went to my chinese class as usual but you were not there. I leave the class at 11 o'clock and went to a gift shop with our other 2 friends. We were looking for a gift for you, but I can't stay too long, cus my mum keep calling me home for lunch. I decided to buy you a pair of shoes and I am glad to know that you love it. I drive back home, but your house is near my house, so I went to your house first to drop a gift for you. We took some pictures together... hahaha and here we go...
on the way to her house, was taking this pic while I was driving so it's a bit blur.....
Svetlena & Svieta
on the way to her house, was taking this pic while I was driving so it's a bit blur.....
Svetlena & Svieta
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Action speaks louder than words...
People talks to you very friendly, kind, polite...etc but it's hard to tell whether or not they are jealous, envious, grudge and speak ill behind your back and there's a quote that say "action speaks louder than words". It is true that we cannot trust very word people said but we can tell by their action toward us but...there's some people that pretend to act nice to us, pretend to be so generous and to be short, everything is just a pretending. So, the quote here"Action speaks louder than words" doesn't seems to be right anymore. However, we still can tell that the action is just a pretending or not. We can feel it. All in all, we need to take a very good notice and pay attention to their behavior. Plus, trust you feeling because sometimes there's a thing that we can't see, can't hear but can feel it.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
This is what I want to share.
Well...I got this post from one of the link in my blog and I found it interesting, funny and cool. So now I want to share it with all my followers. Enjoy...
Installing love
Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love.Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are Running?
Tech Support: What programs are running?
Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
TechSupport: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer Disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from Being properly installed. Can you turn those off?
Customer: I don’t Know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, ‘Error - Program not run on external components.’ What should I do?
Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the ‘My Heart’ directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before We hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Installing love
Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install Love.Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are Running?
Tech Support: What programs are running?
Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
TechSupport: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer Disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from Being properly installed. Can you turn those off?
Customer: I don’t Know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, ‘Error - Program not run on external components.’ What should I do?
Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the ‘My Heart’ directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before We hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Friday, August 14, 2009
What a shame!!!
Oh my god!! this evening I got a quiz... Guess what? It was really easy if only I did review but....It's a shame to confess that I didn't review at all. Oh dear, my lecturer would be upset if he know that I am so lazy and careless like this. I'm sure he know it. The worse thing is, I even write something stupid at the end of the quiz paper. I can't believe that I wrote such a thing. It was stupid and I am not that type of student who used to write somthing stupid like that at the end of the exam paper, but I don't know why I did it this evening. I am on my vacation, I stay at home almost the whole day and I only attend my law class in the evening which mean I have plenty of time to do the review for this quiz. But look at me...look at what I did today. I laugh at my answer when I read it again. I just write to fill the space...oh god...I feel bad of my carelessness... :(
Monday, August 3, 2009
Finally I am back, but....
It's been such a long time that I have no chance to get online or update my blog. This Saturday I got internet at home back but you know what? I still couldn't get online or post anything new immediately because I get sick again. The last time is cold but this time I don't how to name it. I was dizzy and vomit and the feeling at that time was really bad and hard to maintain. However, this morning, the moment that I am typing this post, I am better, just still alittle dizzy. Anyway...this is just a short post to inform all of my followers that I am back. Smile
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Dream...
Each and every person has their own dream. Some of them could even turn their dream into reality while some would keep on dreaming for the rest of their life. To me, I classify dream into 2.
One, it is a "Dream" that can come true when we work hard enough to achieve it. For example, a dream to be a lawyer, a doctor, a famous film star, etc...
Two, is a "Dream" that is just a dream which I wanted to talk about. It is a dream that is a little too different from reality. A dream which will never come true. A dream that is too impossible to come true. Knowing that It is just a dream, we still want to dream endlessly simply because everything in the dream is too beautiful and go smoothly as we want it to be. It's peaceful, relax, happy, memorable, and satisfaction which is so different from our real world that full of competition, argument, conflict and too cruel with violent, jealousy, envious, hatred, that you always wanted to escape and live in your beautiful dream's world forever and ever and don't even want to wake yourself up.
I, sometimes even wish to have a life like in the fairytale, novel or drama. Though my life is so perfect and I feel lucky to be born in this family, still I wish to have a life as in the drama, so is this what we call greedy??
I guess it's a part of it, but it doesn't mean I am not satisfy with what I am possessing right now, but for the future instead. This is obviously because I don't really know what my future will be like, so I just hope and dream to have a future that go so well as in the drama and end with a happy ending, but at the same time I have to force myself to wake up and accept the reality that I am living with and go on with my daily life hoping that everything will be alright, Hoping that tomorrow is a great day that leave me with a good lesson of life, a better experience than yesterday, and the best day that I have ever had.
One, it is a "Dream" that can come true when we work hard enough to achieve it. For example, a dream to be a lawyer, a doctor, a famous film star, etc...
Two, is a "Dream" that is just a dream which I wanted to talk about. It is a dream that is a little too different from reality. A dream which will never come true. A dream that is too impossible to come true. Knowing that It is just a dream, we still want to dream endlessly simply because everything in the dream is too beautiful and go smoothly as we want it to be. It's peaceful, relax, happy, memorable, and satisfaction which is so different from our real world that full of competition, argument, conflict and too cruel with violent, jealousy, envious, hatred, that you always wanted to escape and live in your beautiful dream's world forever and ever and don't even want to wake yourself up.
I, sometimes even wish to have a life like in the fairytale, novel or drama. Though my life is so perfect and I feel lucky to be born in this family, still I wish to have a life as in the drama, so is this what we call greedy??
I guess it's a part of it, but it doesn't mean I am not satisfy with what I am possessing right now, but for the future instead. This is obviously because I don't really know what my future will be like, so I just hope and dream to have a future that go so well as in the drama and end with a happy ending, but at the same time I have to force myself to wake up and accept the reality that I am living with and go on with my daily life hoping that everything will be alright, Hoping that tomorrow is a great day that leave me with a good lesson of life, a better experience than yesterday, and the best day that I have ever had.
What is wrong with me today??
Okay...I used to watch a korean drama call "Princess hours" and love that drama so much that I gone so crazy. Today, because I got so much free time, I just kill my time by watching that movie again from episode 1 until 24. In episode 12, the crown Prince was away from the palace to Thailand, and the crown princess couldn't eat. She has no feeling of eating, she was not hungry at all, so what I am trying to tell you is I feel exactly the same after watching that part. How stupid...I just lost my appetite, I didn't feel hungry just like what the princess did in the movie. What the hell...what's wrong with me. Why I am suddently feel stupid like that. Anyway, don't worry about me. I didn't eat rice but I eat something else, wink!
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Sick!!!
I am sick now(catch a cold, hope it's not SWINE FLU)...so m not gonna post anything new...I will just spending my time sleep and sleep....But I'll post something interesting when I get back...Have a nice day everyone....see you.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Picture!!!
okay...these are some picture taken by ME ^^ yesterday, good photographer eh? hehe...
so hope you all enjoy it.
this is the firework, the best shot from yesterday I guess.
and this one as well.
However, this one is not a firework here but in Malaysia, and I just want to show you because this is the best shot of all. Taken by me too^^
so hope you all enjoy it.
this is the firework, the best shot from yesterday I guess.
and this one as well.
However, this one is not a firework here but in Malaysia, and I just want to show you because this is the best shot of all. Taken by me too^^And this is the full moon taken by ME from the view of one of the window in my study room.
Zooming...bigger lah...
PS: I love to take the picture of the moon esp when it is full.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I am proud to be born as khmer.
I might look like chinese people.
I got a Russian name.
I learn more than one foreign languages.
But my heart, my mind and my soul is truely belong to Cambodia and Cambodia only. I dare to call myself khmer people.
This is my second post for today but I just can't stop myself from writing. I want to write and share as much as possible as the 07th of July has only one time per year.
I want to say that I am lucky to have experienced with such a histroical event in my life. I am lucky to be born as a Cambodian people.
Today at the evening we have a memorable celebration at the olympic statium. Though today is Tuesday but there were many many people attended the celebration. I am not attending the celebration but I did watch the live on TV and I am so touch by the crowd of people waving the flag of Cambodia up high with the song, the sound of the cheer, the solidarity of khmer people show how brave they are dying to protect their country and how much they love their country and nation. I almost cry with the smile of love and proud to be who I am. After that I watch the firework on the balcony of the second floor of my house and the firework was just infront of me. It was so close and absolutely enomous that produce a very loud sound. I am proud to be who I am, I am proud to be khmer.
This is the photo I took while I was watching the celebration of our world heritage 1 year anniversary (Prasat Preah vihear) on TV this evening.
I got a Russian name.
I learn more than one foreign languages.
But my heart, my mind and my soul is truely belong to Cambodia and Cambodia only. I dare to call myself khmer people.
This is my second post for today but I just can't stop myself from writing. I want to write and share as much as possible as the 07th of July has only one time per year.
I want to say that I am lucky to have experienced with such a histroical event in my life. I am lucky to be born as a Cambodian people.
Today at the evening we have a memorable celebration at the olympic statium. Though today is Tuesday but there were many many people attended the celebration. I am not attending the celebration but I did watch the live on TV and I am so touch by the crowd of people waving the flag of Cambodia up high with the song, the sound of the cheer, the solidarity of khmer people show how brave they are dying to protect their country and how much they love their country and nation. I almost cry with the smile of love and proud to be who I am. After that I watch the firework on the balcony of the second floor of my house and the firework was just infront of me. It was so close and absolutely enomous that produce a very loud sound. I am proud to be who I am, I am proud to be khmer.
This is the photo I took while I was watching the celebration of our world heritage 1 year anniversary (Prasat Preah vihear) on TV this evening.
Congratulation to Prasat Preah Vihear of the Kingdom of Cambodia
Today is the 1st year anniversary of our Preah Vihear temple which was granted as the World heritage on 07,07,08. Every house or most of the house put the flag of Cambodia up high and every school celebrate this memorable event. So I got something for you all, for our country, for the whole world. (For us). It is the song below:
My hand writing is not nice but hope you can understand it.
PS: There are some reasons why I scan my hand writing and post it as a picture but not type it.
My hand writing is not nice but hope you can understand it.PS: There are some reasons why I scan my hand writing and post it as a picture but not type it.
Monday, July 6, 2009
We are the future!!
That is what one of my lecturer call the students "They are the future".
This one sentence is short, simple but contain a very deep meaning that can be explain and write into a hundreds of book.
I will remember this in mind "I am the future". Smile!
It's not my future but I, myself is the future.
I will work hard to achieve my dream, my goal for myself and family for my future BUT also for my country. FOR Cambodia FUTURE. I am the future of my country.
But can I am all alone make this work?? of couse not, because not only me, but you all are the future of your country, your family and finally for youself, your dream as well.
This one sentence is short, simple but contain a very deep meaning that can be explain and write into a hundreds of book.
I will remember this in mind "I am the future". Smile!
It's not my future but I, myself is the future.
I will work hard to achieve my dream, my goal for myself and family for my future BUT also for my country. FOR Cambodia FUTURE. I am the future of my country.
But can I am all alone make this work?? of couse not, because not only me, but you all are the future of your country, your family and finally for youself, your dream as well.
Be more positive!!
1. Have you ever been to some place that make you think it is the best place in the world?
2. Have you ever met someone that make you feel He/she is the only person to you that no one can be replace?
3. Have you ever eaten any food that make you feel it is the most delicous food in the world?
well...I am sure you have, especially for number two. It is true that after you get close to someone, you really like them and you don't even want to imagine livining your life without that person or that group of people. You don't really know whether or not you could live without them. That is the foolish idea indeed.
For those who felt that way is those who know very few people. If only you try to know more people, you'll find out that, there are many good people out there that you never known they exist. Sometimes you'll realized that the person that you used to be happy with and get along really well with, is not the person that you are looking for. So, try to think about what kind or what type of person that you like, who would be perfectly fit with your thought. Create an imaginary person, a type of person that you wish they exist in this world, the type of person who has personality that you are looking for, and if you can actually met that person, you would know how it feels like. Taking myself as a perfect example, I used to be with a group of friends when I were a kid. Those friends are who I always wanted to be with, to play with and they are the people that I enjoy being with. Because the class was small, only 13 or 15 students in one class so the whole class are friends and we often went everywhere together. Suprisingly, nowaday, I feel uncomfortable being with them and I realized that they are not my type. Probably because I've met more people and those people I met are always better that the previous one. From these, I can see that there are many many people out there whom I might really like them because they are my type or simply they are who I am looking for.
2. Have you ever met someone that make you feel He/she is the only person to you that no one can be replace?
3. Have you ever eaten any food that make you feel it is the most delicous food in the world?
well...I am sure you have, especially for number two. It is true that after you get close to someone, you really like them and you don't even want to imagine livining your life without that person or that group of people. You don't really know whether or not you could live without them. That is the foolish idea indeed.
For those who felt that way is those who know very few people. If only you try to know more people, you'll find out that, there are many good people out there that you never known they exist. Sometimes you'll realized that the person that you used to be happy with and get along really well with, is not the person that you are looking for. So, try to think about what kind or what type of person that you like, who would be perfectly fit with your thought. Create an imaginary person, a type of person that you wish they exist in this world, the type of person who has personality that you are looking for, and if you can actually met that person, you would know how it feels like. Taking myself as a perfect example, I used to be with a group of friends when I were a kid. Those friends are who I always wanted to be with, to play with and they are the people that I enjoy being with. Because the class was small, only 13 or 15 students in one class so the whole class are friends and we often went everywhere together. Suprisingly, nowaday, I feel uncomfortable being with them and I realized that they are not my type. Probably because I've met more people and those people I met are always better that the previous one. From these, I can see that there are many many people out there whom I might really like them because they are my type or simply they are who I am looking for.
The same case happen to those who LOVE someone so much that would even suicide without that person. That is absolutely ridiculous. How can you live before you know that person? just live the same way as you used to.So, be possitive to everything around you and give yourself a chance to know more people BUT you must also be selective. Don't just want to know more people and then fall under their trap or trick. Be more selective like i said the person that you are looking for must be the good one so if they are not a good person then that person is not who you are trying to find.
Coming up next...(My ideal person)
Saturday, July 4, 2009
My plan during the vacation.
After the Final Exam, I'll be freed from IFL so I plan to do a list of things below:
Education purpose:
1- pay more attention on my chinese class.
2- pay more attention and spend more time to read some law books.
3- continues study Thai language (I used to study it last vacation so i'll just do the same this year.)
4- spend more time read the newspaper(Cambodia Daily), watch more useful TV program (National Geography, Discovery channel...), listen to the radio (Chinese Radio, VOA, BBC...)
5- arrange the old book and keep some place for year 3 books.
Health purpose:
- gain 6kg or more in this 3 months (because I am too thin)
-sleep 10 hours per day.
- drink more than 2 litres of water per day
- exercise every morning....
Entertaining purpose:
- finish some dramas (at least one for this vacation)
- chatting
- listen to the music
- and so on....
Quite alot hah...let see if I can succeed all of thess purposes...
I'll let you know how many point I could do as I plan to.
Education purpose:
1- pay more attention on my chinese class.
2- pay more attention and spend more time to read some law books.
3- continues study Thai language (I used to study it last vacation so i'll just do the same this year.)
4- spend more time read the newspaper(Cambodia Daily), watch more useful TV program (National Geography, Discovery channel...), listen to the radio (Chinese Radio, VOA, BBC...)
5- arrange the old book and keep some place for year 3 books.
Health purpose:
- gain 6kg or more in this 3 months (because I am too thin)
-sleep 10 hours per day.
- drink more than 2 litres of water per day
- exercise every morning....
Entertaining purpose:
- finish some dramas (at least one for this vacation)
- chatting
- listen to the music
- and so on....
Quite alot hah...let see if I can succeed all of thess purposes...
I'll let you know how many point I could do as I plan to.
Friday, July 3, 2009
I am Freeeeee....yeaaaa....
Finally, the day that I am waiting for has arrive. It is today, no not today but tonight. From tonight on I will be so free...
what should I do then?? let me think
-sleep
-eat
-sleep
-eat
-sleep
-eat
-go to law school
I'll try to post something more interesting besides just about ME.
what should I do then?? let me think
-sleep
-eat
-sleep
-eat
-sleep
-eat
-go to law school
I'll try to post something more interesting besides just about ME.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Just another day...
Today I stay at home for the whole day prepare and review for today exam.
At 2:00pm : CE exam
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At 4:00pm : time's up, put your pen down!!
after that i got 2 of my revision test paper...umm the result is under my expectation. I expect to get higher score and when you get lower than what you expected, it's hurt and now I am sad....
At 2:00pm : CE exam
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At 4:00pm : time's up, put your pen down!!
after that i got 2 of my revision test paper...umm the result is under my expectation. I expect to get higher score and when you get lower than what you expected, it's hurt and now I am sad....
Monday, June 29, 2009
If I look difference, will I still be who I am?
People have their reason to do or decide to do something but whatever that reason is, only you, youself find that it is reasonable. For the other, they will just put a blame on you or reject that reason. However, who cares? My reason and my decision won't change because I have think more than twice before I reach this decision. I balance the advantage and disadvange. I ask so many people that i trust. I ask advice from almost everyone I know. I consider about it again an again.
I even ask myself,
-If i look different will I be the same ME?
-will I still be someone I used to be?
-will you still accept me as your friend,
-will I still be someone I used to be?
-will you still accept me as your friend,
your daughter,
your sister,
your cousin,
your granddaughter,
your niece or your student?
-will people look at me the same way as they used to do?
-will they feel disguisting toward me?
-will they chase me away deny that they never knew me?
-will people look at me the same way as they used to do?
-will they feel disguisting toward me?
-will they chase me away deny that they never knew me?
I can't imagine if the answer is "No".
-That I will not be the same.
-No one will accept the fact that I am Svieta
-No one will accept the fact that they used to know me before
-Everyone feel disguisting
-Everyone chase me away like someone they never know.
-That I will not be the same.
-No one will accept the fact that I am Svieta
-No one will accept the fact that they used to know me before
-Everyone feel disguisting
-Everyone chase me away like someone they never know.
And no matter how hard m trying to tell them
-To explain them hoping that they will accept the new me
-To talk to them
-To be friendly
-To remind the past hoping that they will remember me
They just stand up and walk away then what will my life be?
and I'll ask myself did I make the wrong decision?
However, I promise that:
-I will always be the same
-I will always be your daughter,
-Your sister
-Your granddaughter
-Your cousin
-Your niece
-Your student
-Your friend....if You don't mind this newly look ME...
-To explain them hoping that they will accept the new me
-To talk to them
-To be friendly
-To remind the past hoping that they will remember me
They just stand up and walk away then what will my life be?
and I'll ask myself did I make the wrong decision?
However, I promise that:
-I will always be the same
-I will always be your daughter,
-Your sister
-Your granddaughter
-Your cousin
-Your niece
-Your student
-Your friend....if You don't mind this newly look ME...
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
每天将永远是不同的...
yesterday I was so happy because of my individual assignment result but today...
Today I am so sad...and I don't really know the exact reason why I am that sad.
It just like my life is unstable. It keep going up and down, up and down. Sometimes I can be very sad immediately with alittle thing....sigh
well...don't want to said much so I would just end it right here.
Today I am so sad...and I don't really know the exact reason why I am that sad.
It just like my life is unstable. It keep going up and down, up and down. Sometimes I can be very sad immediately with alittle thing....sigh
well...don't want to said much so I would just end it right here.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
what should you do when you feel down or tired of trying?
I know everyone has come across that kind of feeling in a life time. The feeling of sad and want to give up every try because you have try so hard already but the result doesn't improve.
You just feel like, I am so tired of trying, no matter how much u put ur effort in and try your best, You still got the same result as if you don't pay attention to it at all.
I know clearly how it feels like because I , myself rapidly feel that. And I am not good to hide that feeling. Normally after i got the result, I immediately feel so bad about it. I would just look as upset as it is the end of the world. If I can cry I would.
When I got back home I try so hard not to let my parents notice about that because I don't want to turn them down, but after that, I went up to my bedroom and I started to feel that bad again.
I feel like my heart is dying and my mind is stucking refuse to work hard any more. I feel so down. So, what I used to do is to cheer myself up. After a bad day is over, at night before I fall asleep, I used to argue with my feeling of tired of trying.
I would say "No, I cannot stop right here, I haven't achieve my goal yet" and if it is not the happy ending, it's not the end of My story. So, I'll go on by telling myself to try even harder or keep trying. once you have give enough try, there must be one day that you will appreciate with your result.
And that result that i hate to get, that ridiculous mistakes, that laugh of the other about my speech are just a key to remind me, to give me more energy to keep studying more n more and push me toward my door and unlock it successfully.
So, now I am not who I want to be yet, I am still in the process of keep going. However, I feel alot better and appreciate most of my result and that's what I want to share.
-Keep going, keep trying and cheer yourself up.
-Remember your fault, ur mistake and try not to make the same mistake again.
what if u do?? but if u still do. it's ok
-Don't ever feel bad about it. well...u can feel bad about it but after that do sth.
And remember that " A man who never made mistake, never made anything."
-Keep going, keep trying and cheer yourself up.
-Remember your fault, ur mistake and try not to make the same mistake again.
what if u do?? but if u still do. it's ok
-Don't ever feel bad about it. well...u can feel bad about it but after that do sth.
And remember that " A man who never made mistake, never made anything."
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Do u believe???
Do you believe in luck, fate, destiny, dream and stuff like that?
To me, I definitely believe that eveything in everysecond that u face with or someone that you might meet is "A destiny" which has already given to you. Though you can change ur life base on your choice but that choice is a destiny. The surrounding environment and ur dream help u to reach ur decision. After u decided which way to go, luck'll help u reach ur goal, help ur dream come true and the result is ur fate, ur destiny.
To me, I definitely believe that eveything in everysecond that u face with or someone that you might meet is "A destiny" which has already given to you. Though you can change ur life base on your choice but that choice is a destiny. The surrounding environment and ur dream help u to reach ur decision. After u decided which way to go, luck'll help u reach ur goal, help ur dream come true and the result is ur fate, ur destiny.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
What I like to see...
I would like to see myself as:
- a brilliant student
- a grateful daughter
- a successful girl
- a true friend
- ......
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besides that, the picture below are also the view that I like to see.
The sea....yeah It is the sea.
The blue sea and the sky,
The smell of the salt water and the sand
The wind blow and the sound of the seawave
did impress me pretty much...
The historical places which enable me feel the history and the mystery of the past 
The natural view (green) represent peace and quite
City, where I know that I am not alone. Though it's quite complex, stress and boring but I like it anyway.
PS: I took this photo and it's not in Cambodia
so tell me, what would u like to see?
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Do we have the same life?
People born - grow up - mature - love - married - old - sick - die.
This is what generally happen to each and everyone of us as a human being. However, we all have different life. Girl at my age, some are mature enough to get married and enter a different stage of life while some prefer to get married only after they graduate. From this point, we can see that people at the same age experienced different life. Sometimes, I really wonder how my friend would feels like getting married at this age but feeling so doesn't mean I want to get married. I just wonder how different and difficult they might feel getting married quite young because if I were them, I cannot accept it. I cannot adapt with such a new, huge fast changes in life. It's kinda too fast...so I think I know how hard they might feel and face with to enter a new stage like this once in a life time...
Saturday, June 6, 2009
About the author....
Welcome to my blog once again...Actually, I have created 4 blogs already but i just don't have time for it, so I delete it, and then when i want to write, i made another new one. Then i don't have enough time for it, i deleted it again and again and again. This is my fifth blog:D and this time i won't delete it, i promise.
So, the main idea of this post is to admit that I am not a good writer at all. You will find many ridiculous mistakes everywhere here but please endure with it...
Then who am I ? Who is the author? well...I am just someone like you all, i am a year 2 scholaship student at IFL and also a ELBBL student at RULE. Wow...seems like my position suppose be someone whose English is great right?? But again, I am not....I used to hate writing very much and my writing is very very bad but thanks to one person who made me LOVE writing so much. Even it's not the best writing of all but I feel more confident and positive about it.
PS: that ONE person is my writing skill Lecturer, don't get confuse...
So, the main idea of this post is to admit that I am not a good writer at all. You will find many ridiculous mistakes everywhere here but please endure with it...
Then who am I ? Who is the author? well...I am just someone like you all, i am a year 2 scholaship student at IFL and also a ELBBL student at RULE. Wow...seems like my position suppose be someone whose English is great right?? But again, I am not....I used to hate writing very much and my writing is very very bad but thanks to one person who made me LOVE writing so much. Even it's not the best writing of all but I feel more confident and positive about it.
PS: that ONE person is my writing skill Lecturer, don't get confuse...
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